Look, I put a pen to the pad and painted pictures of my past life... Positive the people round me just want me to act right Probably cuz they remember images I tossed out, Possibly cuz they see possibilities I might like I been staring at my instability at night time, I been stressing hard because I couldn't write the right rhymes To capture all my struggles and successes in the right flow And do it in a way that keep y'all interested in my life... I live a high life, I'm blessed to be where I'm at, I could've died thrice... I been all over the map, Some never fly twice... I got a crib, a couple dollars, And some calm ice I be going all night, Never catch a lick a sleep Anxious 'bout my my strategy While everybody counting sheep Wondering who mad at me When ain't nobody worried but.. I be going hard to make sure history do not repeat I put a pen to the pad and painted pictures of my past life... Positive the people round me just want me to act right Probably cuz they remember images I tossed out Possibly cuz they see possibilities I might like I been staring at my instability at night time I been stressing hard because I couldn't write the right rhymes To capture all my struggles and successes in the right flow And do it in a way that keep y'all interested in my life... I was in the dark, it's hard say what was in front of me... might as well have fought all of my battles in a blindfold. Had to earn my stripes, I was just floating like a bumblebee— butterflies up in my stomach everywhere that I'd go... Whether I'm on stage, or in a meeting with my company... question if the people there would notice if I died slow, and I know that them thoughts is pressure... So I hide those, and people say I'm smooth, but that texture, I don't think I know, I... Put a pen to the pad, and painted pictures of my past life... I said that sh*t a couple times and still ain't act right... I used to think I could find happiness in promiscuity and was ignoring every single bit of advice I knew intoxication prolly woulda ruined me And I still went ahead and drank until I had a bad night Almost every night... Damn I was trippin... Them paper planes on me, man I took mad flights I put a pen to the pad and painted pictures of my past life... Positive the people round me just want me on to act right Probably cuz they remember images I tossed out Possibly cuz they see possibilities I might like I been staring at my instability at night time I been stressing hard because I couldn't write the right rhymes To capture all my struggles and successes in the right flow And do it in a way that keep y'all interested in my life...

Look... The ocean flow in multiple directions... The same way I bet SO4P gon' flow with multiple inflections, Speaking 'bout the resurrection Of a new breed.. They say we gon be the change, I say we need a new league The game been rigged for centuries, The powers with a few teams... This shit uneven, gotta balance on a new beam Societal gymnastics, I did backflips in a few dreams… Felt like I scored a hat trick On my mattress... It was too clean Trapped inside the matrix, I'm trying my best to save myself… But I feel so elated when I smoke a spliff, Forget my health. Trying meditation, So I'm slowly cracking through my shell… But I still feel impatient, And avoid asking around for help. My shawty got me checking with a therapist, Hope I get well… Because the last few weeks felt like I’m trapped in hell. Over the last few months, I forgot how to tell my story… And the last few years showed that no one could tell it for me. I used to want everyone to adore me... But now all I want is my inner peace, right? I remember when that bus was right before me, And a fraction of my brain wanted to step in front them street lights... Like maybe I could find out what that peace like... No need to rewrite... But I'm tryna to keep going... It's a quarter of my heart that still believe that I was chosen, So I'm shuffling my cards And I’ma pick 'em like they frozen With precision, my incisions Chop the top like I was mowing–– On my best days, I sat above the water like a lotus… Ignored the people round me, They too focused on the POTUS with the best waves; But when he doing wrong, They never noticed... I got family living check to check, While tyrants get a bonus... On them ships, they had us neck to neck, Then say we got the onus... To reach success As if them shackles didn't hold us... I do my best, but it still feel like shit is bogus.... Try not to stress, but I still feel like they don't know us... Said I feel like a, lotus–– Sitting above the water… I peeped they act like they don’t, know us, But hope we act like sons and daughters Open the floodgates, and let me through… I ain't got nothin’ left to lose, Said I feel like a, lotus–– Sitting above the.... Fumes.

I'm wondering just who gon’ ride with me, Who gon’ slide with me when it's time... Saying they gotchu, but you never on they mind... Trust me I understand, I hate a waste of time.. But I believe in me, I know I'm finna shine Who gon’ ride with me, Who gon’ slide with me when it's time... Saying they gotchu, but you never on they mind... Trust me I get it, I would hate to walk that line... Just peep the difference when I'm on the other side Who gon’ ride with me, Who gon’ slide with me when it's time... Saying they gotchu, but you never on they mind... Don't worry ‘bout it, I'll get over it in time... It's all a lesson if I make it out alive. I'm hearing “dot, dot, dash," come out the vocal cords… I'm thinking ‘bout my past, I gotta grow some more… I need a lot of cash, before I close the door… I'm hoping I don't crash, already hit the floor… Yeah, already hit the floor... So really, what could happen if I sink a likkle more? Facing depression, Thought I had to drink a likkle more.. Counting my blessings, hoping I could make em trickle more... Knew I was sick before the green emojis... But I ain't never ask for help until my homie told me... She just the homie now, she could've been my one and only... But those who know me say I'm prolly better by my lonely And if you knew me then, you probably don't know me now... Remember high school, my laugh was the talk of the town… I see them nowadays, they like "bro you don't come around" A different lifestyle every time I go across the towns I'm wondering just who gon’ ride with me, Who gon’ slide with me when it's time... Saying they gotchu, but you never on they mind... Trust me I understand, I hate a waste of time.. But I believe in me, I know I'm finna shine Who gon’ ride with me, Who gon’ slide with me when it's time... Saying they gotchu, but you never on they mind... Trust me I get it, I would hate to walk that line... Just peep the difference when I'm on the other side Who gon’ ride with me, Who gon’ slide with me when it's time... Saying they gotchu, but you never on they mind... Don't worry ‘bout it, I'll get over it in time... It's all a lesson if I make it out alive.